Oh The Joys of Pregnancy

Ok, so right now I'm NOT OK!!! I am so hormonal, and so emotional its ridiculous. I want to scream at people, cry in my pillow, and running away sounds pretty good too right now. I swear last week everything was in order. I knew dates and times, and had arrangements made. Now I feel like I dont know anything. I had plans to have walls skimmed on next Thursday and Friday while I clean, and paint on Saturday and Sunday. SO NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!! I didn't factor in priming. Ha!!! Now I have help on Saturday and Sunday but none after that. Tony will be at work. Anyone else ever felt overwhelmed by a HUGE paint project and taking care of 3 kids??? Dont forget the moving and organizing!!! I am determined to have this ALL done by the time mom gets back from Rachel's. I just dont know that it will be, and if it's not I'm gonna be really disappointed in myself because I wanted mom to come back to a "new" house. Tristin had his last day of school today, so I dont even get a break now. He doesnt take naps so that means I will have at least one kid all day long. It doesnt help either when people around you are being negative. Tony keeps saying he doesnt think the money is coming. Even when I tell him I have be REASSURED BY NOT ONLY THE IRS BUT MY IRS ADVOCATE!!! The check is being mailed THIS Friday, I know I wont get it on Saturday, or Monday because the mail isnt running on Memorial Day. I am expecting Tuesday or Wednesday at the LATEST. I have my hopes very high up, and its almost like Tony is TRYING to knock them down. It's hard to stay positive when your so emotional already. I'm even upset about a curtain that hangs over a door. There is something really wrong with that picture. Not to mention (and I'm not mad at anyone) nobody responded to my blog about Star being a girl. NOT EVEN ON FACEBOOK. Except Vanessa. Well, I'm gonna get going because it is starting to become very difficult to follow my own no negative posts rule.

Survey Says:

ITS A GIRL, ITS A GIRL, ITS A GIRL!!!!!!! I would definitely have to say that my family is complete. I have two boys and now I will have two girls. Jordin won't be alone anymore!!!! I have picked the name too. Jaydin Ethel-Delores Cottingham. I am going to have two sets of Irish twins. Plus, little Jaydin will be a 2x Irish twin. The true definition of an Irish twin is two children born within 12 months of each other, but I still think my little girls as Irish twins because so what if they miss the mark by 1 lousy month. Also, my wonderful sister is having her baby very soon (can't wait to see you Mooner!) so Star and Mooner will be Irish twins in that aspect as well. Or Irish cousins for all you technical people out there. But you still cant steal my joy!!!
Things have been pretty hectic here lately. God blessed Tony when someone else lost their job at work (not to sound mean) and it was the same person that was putting bad things in Tony's head that was making him doubt himself and not want to go to work. With this person gone Tony has more job security and KNOWS he's the best mechanic there. Why? Well, one of the remaining people is still a student so he's still learning, and the other is only there because he is family to the owner. He usually ends up getting paid to read or fiddle around outside. So, things are pretty good for Tony. On the home front we will have our money from the IRS in the first week of June. For sure this time!!! We also have the option to buy a bigger home for a cheaper price with more land!!! If the leasing lady continues to work with us we will be able to get this "May Deal" even if we sign in June. Keep praying please!!!
I had my midwife appointment on Thursday. They upped my dose of Adderall and gave me an anti depressant. BAD combo for me. The Lexapro made me MANIC BAAAAD. Luckily I had my ma there to help me out. I really dont know where I would be without her. I really dont want to relive what happened this week but know I made it through with the help of Becky and prayers to the Lord. AMEN!!!! By the way on Mothers Day Tony ended up letting me get ALL three kids dedicated. I'm going to post pictures of it on Facebook for all those that want to look.
Back to Star.
About two weeks ago I began to feel her move. And the doctor says she weighs about one pound now. I officially dont fit into my clothes anymore, so right now I'm borrowing Tom's sweatpants. If anyone can send maternity clothes I would appreciate!!!! I have a pretty good idea what the girls room will look like for the new house. Northwoods gave me a crib which I picked up today. Pastor Mike is such a kind person. He told me that when he was putting the crib in the maintence room at the church other people where asking him about it and he told them my story. He said before he knew what was happening people where trying to donate stuff to my family. One guy has offered a changing table that he hand made (has to clear it with his wife first though) and others have offered stuff for our home. As the phone calls come in we get to go pick up. How much of a blessing is that???? And the kids pediatrician called me a good mom today!!! Stuff like that means so much!!!
I really dont know what else to post about because honestly I have a lot on my mind and it's late. A quick prayer request before I go. Please pray for Tristin. I dont want to go into details but we are VERY worried about things that may or may not be going on in his little head. Please pray for him. Please pray for mom as she goes on her trip to see my sister. And please pray for my sister Rachel. Im not going to put peoples business out there, but her family needs prayer so please please please pray for them.
When I get a chance I will post more sonogram pictures and a baby bump picture too. Much love to all from the Sinks/Cottingham clan!!!