Baby Update

Hello everyone!!! Just thought I would take a few minutes to update and let my faithful readers know how baby Jaydin is doing. First off I have a wonderful picture to show. She smiles now, and I was lucky enough to catch one of those beautiful smiles on camera so here you go...



Isn't she getting so big?? She has her days and nights correct! Finally Yea!!! Yes Jim that means you get more sleep now. Tehe. And now for my exciting moment. I was lucky enough to catch a first on camera. This makes me a cool mom right? My wonderful big girl daughter was holding her bottle all by her little self. Take a look!!!



Oh such a big girl. Now for a family update. Everyone is doing very well. Tristin is enjoying school a lot. He comes home and can identify purple, pink, blue, yellow, and this week they are working on white. Chris Chris needs glasses. We took him a few weeks ago to try on a pair and he didnt want to take them off. Lets hope he leaves them on when we finally get them in. Sissy is just getting bigger. I swear height wise she will be passing Chris very soon. I went into my room the other day and she yelled "Mommy" at the top of her lungs and was looking right at me. She knows who I am. Sadly I do have a prayer request that isnt so great. Please pray that Tony will start wanting something to do with his daughters. It kills me when he doesnt even ask about them. Please pray he is a better dad. Well, thats it for now. I promise I will try to update more often. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all!!!!!

Jaydin Ethel-Delores Cottingham

Well, hello again from a very skinny new mommy! First and foremost I want to welcome a beautiful little girl to the family. Jaydin Ethel-Delores Cottingham. She is one of the two most beautiful girls in the world!!! What do you think?




This is the day she came home. I cook them do perfection dont I? She is doing very well. I'm sorry this is a short update, but I've actually stollen the computer from someone who was on it. Ooops. I will update more later.

Countdown to Stardust = Countdown to Sunday

So this post may start off a bit sad, but I promise the end results are going to be happy. My dad has gone back to Detroit, and I have lost the PPO case against Tony. Things have been pretty stressful still trying to figure everything out. Mom and I sat down and counted the other night and we discovered that since July 19 I have been in the hospital 7 times. The last two where the worst. One of those visits I was out of Darvaset and told that Dr. Kindred said I could not have anymore until my office visit with him on Thursday which was 2 days away. I was also sent home having contractions every 8-10 minutes yet told that if I have 5 or more contractions in one hour to come back. You do the math. I held out until Wednesday night with no pain medicine. I just couldnt take anymore. Jaydin and really dropped low, I was having pelvic pressure, leaking of fluids, contractions, and of course my wonderful gallbladder. So this time I was escourted to the hospital by not only my mom, but this time my step-dad Tom as well. They where both fed up. I believe the best phrase I heard from mom that night was "I'm making a goal line stand tonight and she is NOT leaving this hospital until you do something for her!" Yes, my wonderful, loving, Christian mother became a Triffilin Detroiter. Just like me. :) I went home that night with Vicodin (yes it was approved while I'm prego) dilated to a 1.5, and put on STRICT bedrest. The next day I went to see Dr. Kindred ready to attack. I was MAD!!! How was it right that I was being told that I was not in a medical emergency (I was in a TON of pain almost ALL the time) even though my head let alone my body couldnt take the pain anymore?? Mom and Tom kept me very calm. Mom explained how her, Dad, and my "hired help" have completly exhausted themselves. Nobody getting hardly any sleep, and if that was the case for them just imagine the amount of sleep I was getting being in all the pain I was in. Mom explained that I had been sent home 2 days before with NO pain management and contractions. She told him how I had been told by residents that Dr. Kindred said I was addicted to medicine, and well to make a long story short she layed everything out on the table for him and in a very straight, calm, get to the point way told Dr. Kindred he was GOING to do something (it did sound to me that she really wasnt giving him much of a choice so for that: THANK YOU MOM!!!). Dr. Kindred said he had no idea that I was in that much pain, if he would have been told by the residents he would have given me something for the pain. He couldnt figure out why when I told the hospital that I had been leaking fluid that they never did a sonogram. So, Dr. Kindred have them do one on me right then and there. Praise God that he did. It turns out that my fluid has been disipating and leaking and that there's hardly any left. So now instead of having to wait until the scheduled date of September 20th for my c-section, but I get the c-section on Sunday September 5th. God is good!!! I am asking for prayer for Jaydin that all will be well with her health. I am asking for prayer that everyone is able to stay strong. And I want to thank all of the people in my life that have been a HUGE support staff for me. The mother I thought I would never have Becky. God truely blessed me when he put you in my life. The step-dad I never thought could be a dad Tom. Thank you for being grumpy and making me laugh, and for telling me the truth even when I didnt want to hear it. And the new found friend that REFUSES to leave Jim. In the middle of the night when I never could have made it through on my own, you got me through... even when I was crazy. I love you all VERY MUCH!!! To my Tristin thank you for asking me if I was okay and kissing my cheek at just the right moment. To my Chris thank you for being the sweet little boy you have always been since the day you where born. To my loving daughter Jordin thank you for letting me be one of the first people to get your kisses at just the right moment too, and for not eating my nose. To my Jaydin, you have been through hell and back it seems to me from the scare in the begining to the pains now. I look so forward to meeting you, and the same advice I have for you. Be like Grandma Cottingham. She will never steer you wrong. I love you guys too!!! So everyone else thank you for keeping updated on my blog. Hopefully the next post I make here will be a nice pic of Jaydin Ethel-Delores Cottingham. God Bless!!!

Gallstones, and babies, and pain oh my

Hello everyone. I wish that I had non stressful things to report today but unfortuanatly I dont. I went yesterday and got an order of protection against Tony, which honestly it broke my heart. When you love and care for someone for as long as I have loved him it hurts. But anyway, while I was at the courthouse I went to such an extreme pain that an abulance got called and the judge was nice enough to hear my case early and grant my order. I got rushed to the hospital with contractions and found out that I have Gallstones which sadly Jaydin is making worse by pushing up against them. They want to do surgery but they cant because it's too much of a risk to Jaydin. So, now the discussion is if they are going to take out the gallbladder when they take Jaydin. They tried to stop the contractions last night but the medicine didnt help. It actually felt worse to me. So, they are just trying to encourage my body to hold on for two more weeks so her lungs are more developed and then they may do something if this doesnt stop. We found out a lot of it is stress related because Jaydin pushes and clenches when I am stressed. I am also dialated to a 1 right now. Looks like no returning to work, I am on maternity leave now. I'm also cancelling the baby shower because nobody can make it. That's okay, with everything going on it may be for the best. I'm just going to have a small lunch with family that day and just enjoy having my family around. It's been really nice to have my dad here from Michigan. I have missed him. I dont want to go into details on the Tony issue thing, but I want everyone to know that I honestly believe with all my heart that things will work out in the end. My dad brought me pictures of Grandma Cottingham and Grandma Sissy and things that belonged to them so it seems as though I feel their strength in me, and it feels good to have a soul renewed.
On the Jaydin front she is doing really well. I actually do have a funny story to share. The hospital was giving me a sonogram to find out what the pain was. The tech told me that she wasnt going to look for baby she was just going to try to see what was causing my pain. What was funny was the first thing she saw when she put the wand on my belly. There was Jaydin not being one bit of shy if you catch my drift. The tech asked me if I knew if it was a boy or girl and i said I was told it was a girl, and she said well, we can definally tell that now if you didnt know before. It was very amuzing and something that made a smile admist all the stress and pain. Well, thats it for now. I am going to go enjoy my dad's company. Dont get to see him often, but itss really nice having him here.

Jaydin is ok... am I?

Hello everyone. Sorry that I haven't written in awhile. In the past two weeks I have been hospitalized. First I should start off by telling you that Jaydin is FINE. She kicks and plays and is fine. Her heart rate is good. Jaydin wise everything is OK. I on the other hand am not. Some of you may have noticed that some of my entries here have been pretty depressing breaking my own rule of no negative posts. Some of you may or may not have known that in January of 2006 I was diagnosed Bipolar 2 (meaning rapid cycler). I did pretty well staying on my medicine but was careful of whom I told because some thought it was me just looking for an excuse to my behavior. In June of 2006 I found out I was pregnant with Tristin and I had to stop taking my medicine because it could be harmful during pregnancy. Since then I have been pregnant in 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, and now 2010 and have not been able to take my medicine except for Zoloft which doesn't have any effect on me whatsoever. However, recently things have changed for me and my mind and body said enough. I caught a simple cold a few weeks ago that sent me into a coughing spell which sent me into a panic attack. Luckily I was with Becky and Tom and they got me to the hospital very concerned for Jaydin getting oxygen. I honestly dont remember most of the hospital stay so what I am about to tell you is coming from Becky (for all those who still think this is an excuse). Apparently I freaked out over an I.V., I was NOT being rational with the nurses, I wanted to go home because I didn't want Tony mad at me, and at first I didn't want to admit there was any problem at all. Finally Becky calmed me down and convinced me to stay and get the help she knew I needed. I was not only physically exhausted (dehydrated, loosing weight, and very pale all the time) but I was mentally exhausted as well. I was over working myself (yes I'm back at Domino's) thinking irrational thoughts (no that doesn't make me a skit so, and no I didn't want to harm anyone I just wanted to disappear), very depressed, letting myself be bullied by people (a certain someone) without realizing it, and letting my kids determine my every move (including eating because they cried when I ate so I stopped eating). Needless to say (as my favorite TV show host puts it) I was a HOT MESS. I saw two Psychiatric doctors and was finally discharged (the first time) with medicine. Thanks to Becky who REFUSED to let me leave the hospital without treatment. I am no longer ashamed to say I take medicine for my Bipolar. I am on Prozac, I am on Serequil, and I am on Ambien. No, it's not harming Jaydin, and for all those people who like to talk, I am NOT going to stop taking it because YOU say so. YOU are NOT my doctor. Things are slowly getting better for me. I am able to recognize irrational thoughts, and when I am being bullied. Things wont change over night. Please don't expect them to (and if this is a problem for you talk to Becky). I am not trying to sound harsh, please understand: I AM TIRED. I am not using this as an excuse for anything, and no honestly I don't expect some people to understand. If you don't understand Bipolar feel free to look it up online and educate yourself. I did. Right now the only people I can go to when I go through a "spell" is Becky and Tom. They are the only ones that understand. I cant expect them (especially Becky who battles the same thing in face we discovered the other day we are bipolar Bipolar meaning each other) to be there every time I call, so yes I am asking that certain other people (you know who you are) to please please do your best to understand, know I'm not lying, and know I'm not using this as an excuse, but right now I need my friends and family (if there are any left). Don't feel sorry for me, I'm not asking you to. Just understand. Well, today has been busy for me, so I am going to get going. I also suppose I have given enough information for ya'll to process. I do ask that if you have read this you respond. I need to know who I have left.

Exhausted

This past few weeks have been horrable for me. I have cancelled doctor appointments all week because I have no transportation, I have been stressed out about cleaning houses and what certain other people think, and now I finally get one kid to a VERY important appointment and they end up having to call 911 because I passed out complety ruining the appointment. I went to the hospital, they said I have low blood pressure, I'm dehydrated, low patassium levels, my anxiety and stress are very high (I had two anxiety attacks while I was there). Over the weekend mom and Tom took care of me while Tony wasnt home which was a HUGE help. I have convinced myself of stupid stuff though. For example even though he has never asked me I have convinced myself I have to greet Tony at the door when he gets off work with a cold moutain dew and the TV remote, and dinner MUST be done. The eating order at my house is kids, Tony, then me. Thats if I was even smart enough to make food for myself. If I didnt then I dont get to eat because if I have anything different than the boys they whine and cry until I give them what I have (even if they are full) so I just end up not eating anyway. They weighed me at the doctors today and I've lost two pounds. I am very overwhelmed about everything and crap I have told my stuff I have to do. I'm very near my ending point but its ok. Right? Oh baby is fine too. Moving lots. Thinking about taking down the carebears theme in the girls room though because someone else likes carebears and i'm just a copy cat. I dont have anything to change it to yet though but I could figure something out. Mom is stopping me from painting the house right now. We think I may be too horemonal right now to do it. Concidering the reason I want to is because I feel like a hotel. I'm not even proud of myself for the house anymore. I dont feel I have achieved anything. Sorry everyone for the depressing stuff ya'll but when you feel like I do you can't find anything good to report. I'm sorry.

Oh The Joys of Pregnancy

Ok, so right now I'm NOT OK!!! I am so hormonal, and so emotional its ridiculous. I want to scream at people, cry in my pillow, and running away sounds pretty good too right now. I swear last week everything was in order. I knew dates and times, and had arrangements made. Now I feel like I dont know anything. I had plans to have walls skimmed on next Thursday and Friday while I clean, and paint on Saturday and Sunday. SO NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!! I didn't factor in priming. Ha!!! Now I have help on Saturday and Sunday but none after that. Tony will be at work. Anyone else ever felt overwhelmed by a HUGE paint project and taking care of 3 kids??? Dont forget the moving and organizing!!! I am determined to have this ALL done by the time mom gets back from Rachel's. I just dont know that it will be, and if it's not I'm gonna be really disappointed in myself because I wanted mom to come back to a "new" house. Tristin had his last day of school today, so I dont even get a break now. He doesnt take naps so that means I will have at least one kid all day long. It doesnt help either when people around you are being negative. Tony keeps saying he doesnt think the money is coming. Even when I tell him I have be REASSURED BY NOT ONLY THE IRS BUT MY IRS ADVOCATE!!! The check is being mailed THIS Friday, I know I wont get it on Saturday, or Monday because the mail isnt running on Memorial Day. I am expecting Tuesday or Wednesday at the LATEST. I have my hopes very high up, and its almost like Tony is TRYING to knock them down. It's hard to stay positive when your so emotional already. I'm even upset about a curtain that hangs over a door. There is something really wrong with that picture. Not to mention (and I'm not mad at anyone) nobody responded to my blog about Star being a girl. NOT EVEN ON FACEBOOK. Except Vanessa. Well, I'm gonna get going because it is starting to become very difficult to follow my own no negative posts rule.

Survey Says:

ITS A GIRL, ITS A GIRL, ITS A GIRL!!!!!!! I would definitely have to say that my family is complete. I have two boys and now I will have two girls. Jordin won't be alone anymore!!!! I have picked the name too. Jaydin Ethel-Delores Cottingham. I am going to have two sets of Irish twins. Plus, little Jaydin will be a 2x Irish twin. The true definition of an Irish twin is two children born within 12 months of each other, but I still think my little girls as Irish twins because so what if they miss the mark by 1 lousy month. Also, my wonderful sister is having her baby very soon (can't wait to see you Mooner!) so Star and Mooner will be Irish twins in that aspect as well. Or Irish cousins for all you technical people out there. But you still cant steal my joy!!!
Things have been pretty hectic here lately. God blessed Tony when someone else lost their job at work (not to sound mean) and it was the same person that was putting bad things in Tony's head that was making him doubt himself and not want to go to work. With this person gone Tony has more job security and KNOWS he's the best mechanic there. Why? Well, one of the remaining people is still a student so he's still learning, and the other is only there because he is family to the owner. He usually ends up getting paid to read or fiddle around outside. So, things are pretty good for Tony. On the home front we will have our money from the IRS in the first week of June. For sure this time!!! We also have the option to buy a bigger home for a cheaper price with more land!!! If the leasing lady continues to work with us we will be able to get this "May Deal" even if we sign in June. Keep praying please!!!
I had my midwife appointment on Thursday. They upped my dose of Adderall and gave me an anti depressant. BAD combo for me. The Lexapro made me MANIC BAAAAD. Luckily I had my ma there to help me out. I really dont know where I would be without her. I really dont want to relive what happened this week but know I made it through with the help of Becky and prayers to the Lord. AMEN!!!! By the way on Mothers Day Tony ended up letting me get ALL three kids dedicated. I'm going to post pictures of it on Facebook for all those that want to look.
Back to Star.
About two weeks ago I began to feel her move. And the doctor says she weighs about one pound now. I officially dont fit into my clothes anymore, so right now I'm borrowing Tom's sweatpants. If anyone can send maternity clothes I would appreciate!!!! I have a pretty good idea what the girls room will look like for the new house. Northwoods gave me a crib which I picked up today. Pastor Mike is such a kind person. He told me that when he was putting the crib in the maintence room at the church other people where asking him about it and he told them my story. He said before he knew what was happening people where trying to donate stuff to my family. One guy has offered a changing table that he hand made (has to clear it with his wife first though) and others have offered stuff for our home. As the phone calls come in we get to go pick up. How much of a blessing is that???? And the kids pediatrician called me a good mom today!!! Stuff like that means so much!!!
I really dont know what else to post about because honestly I have a lot on my mind and it's late. A quick prayer request before I go. Please pray for Tristin. I dont want to go into details but we are VERY worried about things that may or may not be going on in his little head. Please pray for him. Please pray for mom as she goes on her trip to see my sister. And please pray for my sister Rachel. Im not going to put peoples business out there, but her family needs prayer so please please please pray for them.
When I get a chance I will post more sonogram pictures and a baby bump picture too. Much love to all from the Sinks/Cottingham clan!!!

So No sono!

I'm finding myself pretty sad at the moment. I went in to my midwife appointment and was very sad to find they wernt going to do a sonogram on me until I am 22 weeks. Looks like I have to wait another month. It's okay, I guess God only wants me to deal with one excitement at a time. Thats OK!!! I am posting a baby bump picture. This one isn't very good, but I had to wear the shirt Tristin got me with his allowance. It says "worlds coolest mom". We all know this to be true!!! :) I'm still pretty busy packing and cleaning for the move coming up in hopefully less than a week. I even tricked Tony. I will be cleaning the bathroom, and doing laundry while he is washing the dishes, and watching two out of three of our currently sick children. Please keep Tristin, Chris, and Jordin in your prayers. I do want to make one quick recommendation. DONT EVER TAKE YOUR CHILDREN TO METHODIST FAMILY PRACTICE CENTER!!!! Not only do they seem to have trouble helping our little ones, but well, no negative posts so just take it from me. Going there, BAD idea!!! I'm currently on the outlook for anything to go in a home. Right now I dont care if anything matches. I do have a crib (minus mattress) for Jordin which is poopy brown, so me and mom are going to paint it white. WOO-Hoo craft project!!! Everything is moving along quite well with Star. I very much am starting to feel this will be my third boy. Why? Well, when Mary (my wonderful midwife) used the dopplar to listen to the heartbeat last Friday she was hearing more movement than heartbeat. Tristin and Chris where movers, and my little Jordy didnt move so much. My conclusion? Boy. Mom says dont base this off of the other pregnancies, but its SOOOOOOO hard not to. I cant feel any movement yet, but Mary says it shouldn't be too long now especially with how much Star moves. I also talked with Mary about birth control, and medicine for my ADHD since I cant concentrate on more than one thing for two seconds and as a result I get overwhelmed pretty easy. Well, here is the baby bump pic I promised:


I know I dont look very big, but when you cant see your feet anymore unless you lean forward you feel pretty big. Believe me. Well, thats all for now. I hope people comment on my post. Its something I look forward to. Much love to all from the Sinks Cottingham Clan.!!!

Two months too long!

Well hello there everyone!!! I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update. I have been really busy and really stressed out. We are finally coming to the point I think we are going to be able to move into our own home!! I called the IRS after reaching my boiling point (heres where being a hormonal pregnant lady comes in handy) crying. I was very lucky to speak with a very kind lady named Miss. Derrik. She filed whats called an economic hardship form for me, and informed me that by filing that form it gives the IRS one week to give me my money. It looks like everything will work out after all. Praise God!!! Tristin has started school. He does really well, although we are dealing with a bully problem. But I know everything will work out. I can say the teachers assistant seems to be on top of it. Oh, I musent forget to tell everyone that my baby Jordin cut her first two teeth about a week ago. I was so excited I went around telling everyone at Wal-Mart. Jordin did have to tell Mommy to calm down, but was biting me really neccessary? I go in for a midwife appointment this Friday. We are hoping that they will be able to tell me the sex of the baby as I will be 18 weeks. I'm not posting any pictures in this post because I'm hoping they do the sonogram so that I can post those pictures and of course an updated belly bump picture. I would give you one now, but I'm wearing a Mario Brothers one up shirt and a pair of sweats. Very comfy yes, fattering, NOT!!! I'm going through nesting syndrom. I am so exctied about moving into our own house that I'm already looking through books trying to find cheap craft ideas to decorate the house. Well, thats all for this post now. Sorry its so short. Tony had a tooth pulled, and Tristin is sick, plus I'm packing and cleaning, so busy busy busy. I'll post more this weekend. BYE!!!!!

Watch out rainforrest... here I come!!!

Hey everyone. Sorry it took so long for me to update. Things have been pretty hectic lately. I have some new pictures as promised. No baby bump pic though as I feel it has been too soon. I dont think I'm any bigger. In these pics I think Star has gone from Butterfly to Frog. Just an opinion but I think I see frog legs in there somewhere. I have decided to keep a journal for my little Star. I got it from Goodwill today. It's blue and has little tiny stars all over it. Kind of going along with my star theme as you can tell. I plan on posting blogs and coming back a few days later to print the blog and comments then I will glue them in this journal. So back to my main rule, No negitive posts please as Star will someday read them. As promised here are the pictures:





I hope you enjoy. I had an unexpected sonogram done today, but thanks to my inability to make a scan become a jpeg you will have to wait for those.
I had a REALLY good day today. Mom and I took Chris to his birthday breakfast at Dennys which he really enjoyed (though the service could have been better), then we went to Goodwill because I made the very smart decision to buy him clothes and toys from a thrift store because he needed (and still does) clothes more than toys. Well, because my check was more than I expected it to be I decided to spoil myself a bit. Hey stay at home moms need love too!!! I found a Louis Voitton bag, Prada wallet, GUCCI bag, and I got mom a beautiful white GUESS bag. I also paid for us to get our nails done. Dont worry thrift store shopping and nails done at Wal-Mart arent killing my pocket. I was also able to buy home stuff too. Got my sister by God's graces a few things for her Mooner as well. I also found something to help with my pregnancy. I bought a rainforrest music CD. I had a suprise appointment with my Midwife today and we went over my birth plan. She is ok with the music, and btw did you know its actually good NOT to bathe your child until you leave the hospital? The fluid that is on them after they come out is good for their skin, and the longer its on the baby the better. The nurses may not like you because they will have to wear gloves when they touch your baby, but if you do the math, I think I care more about my baby's healthy skin verses the nurses having to wear gloves. Sorry, had a hormonal moment there. Also, some advice for my expectant followers: see if the doctors will let you hold your baby skin to skin (baby to breast preffered) while they give the baby their Vitiman K shot, and wait til the one hour mark to give the baby eye drops so that your little one can see you instead of a fuzzy head when you hold them. My Midwife told me today that there is something in breastmilk that acts as a painkiller to babies so, when they get that Vitiman K shot it wont be as painful for the little one. It's not like they havent been through so much already. Why not make it a little eaiser on them. Plus, if you are holding them when they get their eyedrops atleast when they go fuzzy the will know the little fuz thing they see is Mommy. Just some informaion I thought I would pass down to my expectant mothers.
I do have a prayer request. I am having some EXTREME paranoia. I dont want to go into details, but please keep me in your prayers. And for all that know about my mother issues, please pray for those too.
I'm sure everyone could use a bit of good news. I found out today that (no still dont know the gender) I will have my taxes back by the end of March. This means Tony and I are getting our own place. FINALLY YEA!!!! Just please pray everything goes okay. This lady doesnt seem to want to sell. Please ask God to put on her heart TO MAKE UP HER MIND!!! Ok, I think I'm having a bit of a hormonal attack, so I'm going now. Much love to all from the Sinks/Cottingham clan. We love you all FOREVER.

Nesting Syndrom, or Nustso Syndrom

Ok, so everything in my pregnancy seems to going pretty well. Except for a few minor details (like the only place I get any restful sleep is on the couch because I find it EXTREAMLY comfortable) it's not too much I cant deal with. Until this morning. I cant decide if I am loosing my mind or if this is completly normal. Maybe a mixture of both? Ok, here's my delima: I am on the internet looking for a pregnancy packing list (you know for the trip to the hospital) and then I got the bright idea that I would look for a "zen" labor. Something that is before, during, and after. I think the reason I chose the word "zen" is because when I think zen, I think calm and soothing. This led to furthing thinking (yes I am proof that pregnant women can still think) of wanting a "rainforrest" themed pregnancy and birth. Yes, I think thats the part where I lost my mind. I started remember tequniqes that I was taught about visulization exersizes. So then back to my packing list I decided I want rainforrest music, and I want a rose and baby's breath bouquet to help with my visulization. Is this crazy yet? I even wrote this list down under my "important pregnancy things to remember" list. If you dont think I have totally lost my mind please comment and give some ideas for some ways to relax before, during, and after. You all know I stress alot usually, so some ways to relax now couldnt hurt (I already use sleepytime tea which is good but doesnt put me to sleep) so any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. By the way: Dominos update: I quit For good reasons too. They didnt know I was pregnant and they wanted me to work at night delivering pizza's in the "south end" and they where just doing a lot of bad things that I dont want to discuss (I must follow my own rules about no negitive posts) so it was just more beneficial for me and "Star" for to quit. But things are still okay. Anyway, much love to everyone from the Sinks/Cottingham clan. Love FOREVER!!!

Just an update

Hey everyone!! For all those who prayed for me that court went well, thank you so much. Apparently, my failure to appear was for driving on a suspended licence. OUCH! Well, they let me get away with a $275 fine, and 1 year of conditional probation. For all those who dont know, all this means is that I dont have to report to anyone, make sure I pay my fine, and dont get into any trouble for a year and I will be okay. So thankfully all is good. Thank you again for all those that prayed, and THANK YOU GOD!!! I do have a prayer request. My mom isnt doing so well right now. She just has a lot on her shoulders, sadly given to her by mostly her adopted chidren. She has such a big heart, and she is always thinking of other people, that she forgets to think about herself. Just pray for her that all will be okay. Baby update (of course) I have a sonogram appointment on Tuesday at the Womens Pregnancy Center (not my doctor), and they are hoping to be able to tell me the gender. Though I'm not getting my hopes up. If you look over to the right of the screen you will see I posted a new poll. I want to know if my "fans", as I have come to call you, would like to know the gender of my baby. More yes' and I will more than likely tell you, though everyone that knows me knows I have a pretty big mouth, and it is VERY HARD for me to keep a secret like this. But let me know by your vote. If you would rather wait vote no, and the more no's I will honor your wishes. Well, thats all for now. I will post after my sonogram appointment, and hopefully have pictures. Vote on the poll!!! Much love to everyone!!! And mom, if you read this I love you FOREVER!!!!

Just a note

I just made my birth plan on a wonderful website and thought I would share the website with you for all the expectant mothers. www.earthmamaangelbaby.com. Wonderful place. Very helpful. Just a thought!!

Baby Bump take #1

Well, as I promised for all the mothers that "require" it here is baby bump picture number uno:

Hope you all like it. My hunch is that there is a little boy in there. Why you may ask? Well, when I was speghetti sauced with Tristin and Chris I was HUGE!!! When I was speghetti sauced with Jordin I didnt get very big at all. In fact I was so small with her that if you didnt already know me and how tiny I am you never would have guessed I was prego at all!!!
An update on work: Dont worry I'm still taking it easy, but to let you know: THAT PLACE IS NUTS!!! I wouldnt recomend eating at the Dominos on Western if I was you. Why? They dont know anything about CLEANING!!! The only two cleaning supplies in that entire place is dish soap and dish sanitizer!!! Nothing that actually cleans. Dont ask me what they clean the floors with because honestly there isnt anything to clean them with so I havent a clue if they use ANYTHING besides WATER!! I do have plans to go in there myself and completly clean the you know what out of it! Plus I will see what I can do about getting the manager to order CORPORATE REQUIRED cleaning supplies. Until then DONT EAT THERE!!!
Believe it or not though thats not the worst. What is, is how completly unprofessional the management acts. I cant believe it. I hope I do become manager because I will be making A LOT of changes!!! Just please pray for my sanity.
Speaking of prayer a quick thanks. The other day when I was having a rough time at work I was able to make one quick phone call and have someone pray for me over the phone no questions asked. This person keeps proving more and more that they will be there for me no matter what, and I want to give a "shout out" and a quick thanks. This person would be my mother. Becky Traxler. I love you mom, thanks for being there for me in my time of nutsness.
Anyway, I am working hard keeping my stress level low, and making sure I take all the lovely pills the doctors say I need to take. I am one pill shy (Tums 2 every day) but on payday I will have it. Thats it for now. I will keep posting, and I love everyone very much. For all those who visit my blog please dont forget to become a member of my blog community. When this is all over I want to send personalized thanks to my followers, and I dont want anyone to miss out on that. Also, please keep voting on my polls. I am very intrested in what everyone thinks. So I am sending much love FOREVER from the Sinks/Cottingham Clan. Thanks for following!!!! I'll update more after Valentines Day!!!

I have a Picture :)

I went to see my new doctor Friday. I found out he has an awesome midwife that will also be helping me along with the pregnancy. Her name is Mary Tisdale. They took all my past history and really listened to all my concerns. This is a FIRST!!! I'm hoping for the best pregnancy yet! I'm thankfully no longer considered High Risk, except for the fact that I went into labor early with all the other kids. So they'll be watching for this. I can go to METHODIST and eat ALL THE FOOD I WANT :) Yippee!!!!
I'm putting up our first picture of "Star". I'm officially due Sept. 26, 2010 We saw the baby's heart!!! It was 135 bp and healthy as we can ask and hope for. My bruise is disapating which is good,too. I saw the baby's heart and HEARD the heart beat too. It was very reassuring! Dr. Kindred has the cutest business cards. I'm attaching one of his cards for two purposes...1) So you can see for yourself and agree with me naturally, and 2)If anyone is here in Peoria, I HIGHLY recommend him and here is his number. He has 9 children of his own and is a Christian!
In two weeks I'm up for a manager review at Domino's. They love me...I actually know what I'm doing and make the other's look like idiots LOL! Not to toot my own horn or anything. They do that enough for me :) The first day I was there, the manager said "it's nice to have someone that actually knows what they are doing!" I know I'm gooooood LOL. So wish me lots of luck for the manager review, and I promise I'm still taking it easy. When I become manager, I'll just make everyone else do the work LOL!!!
UPDATE: Tristin will be 3 on the 18th and we are doing a NEMO Birthday! Daddy bought him a salt water tank and we are going to "Nemo-fy it" He woke up this morning and ran staight to the tank. He put two hands up on the tank and screamed "MEEEMMMOOOOO"!! It was sooo cute.
Well, thats all for now, I have to get to work. I will be posting belly shots soon for all mothers that "require" it. Oh, just three prayer requests before I do go. Please pray that court goes well for me next week, pray that I do get the manager position, and please pray that the house and taxes go through without a hitch. The lady that is selling me my trailer is wanting to up the price by $500-$1500. I pretty much told her I can't go any higher than $2000, so please pray that everything goes off without a hitch. No pun intended. Well, thats it for now. I promise belly shot within the next few days. Much love to all from the Sinks/Cottingham clan. We love you all!!!!

Moving on up

Today was my first day of work at Dominos. I loved it. My manager comented that it was "nice to have someone in here that actually knows what their doing". Im loving it!!!! I was excited when I called Becky to check on the kids. I feel acomplished. I go to WIC tomorrow for me and Jordin and then hopefully God willing I will get my taxes done. Please pray for that all. If anyone has any cool ideas of things I could post on this blog let me know, or things you would like to see to keep you updated on "Stardust". Sorry my post is so short today, but I will update you more on Friday after I get back from my doctors appointment. Please pray for more than doubled HCG levels, and who knows I may even have pictures to post.

The Beginning

Monday, January 25th we had a scare. I was at home with the kids and all of a sudden I had lots of pain and felt almost like I was in labor. We rushed to the ER at Methodist here in Peoria, (still hate OSF LOL), then bleeding started.
I panicked (as you would figure), but after the doctor's took an ultrasound we got not conclusive evidence of a miscarriage. The baby was too small at that time to see the heart. I was only 5 weeks and 3 days pregnant. However, we did HCG blood levels which ranged in the 6000's. Two days later, the HCG levels DOUBLED, that was great! I see Dr. David Kindred, a non-abortion and great Christian doctor, on Friday, Feb. 5th to find out more. I'm sure we'll get another ultrasound soon and maybe I'll get pictures we can post very soon. The heart will be visible after 6 to 8 weeks, so I'll have to be patient. Which everyone that knows me KNOWS that will be a hard thing to do...wait!
Thankfully, I have had no further indications of a miscarriage, just a little light cramping here and there...nothing I can't handle! So, I'll post after Friday to update you on the current news of my sweet bit of stardust!
As for my new support system in Peoria I have aquired a sister this week! Amy is Becky's other adopted daughter and we have finally hit it off very well. The bigger the support system the better. She has three children, 6,7, and 10 years old. I'm planning on becoming her fashionista as well as mom's :) They all need my help LOL! I'll have Amy in American Eagle in no time :) Tony is doing much better at being a husband, and father to all of us in the Sinks-Cottingham family. That is a good thing :) He prayed for the first time in a long time when we were worried about the possible miscarriage. Please pray we all keep that up. I've had so many kisses from God this week that I know God answers prayer...NO DOUBT!
I've been thankful to God for this child, so I want a biblical name. Would you help? I'm looking for Bible names for both boys and girls ending in IN to go with TristIN, ChristIaN, and JordIN :) Keeping it IN the family LOL.(as Ben would say!)
Another prayer request, we are getting a place of our own soon YEA, but taxes are the obstacle to getting things going. Please pray for few complications with our returns. With all the moves and family changes, it's not going to be a 1040EZ this year to put it mildly :) I have a JOB. I PROMISE to take it easy. I have worked for Domino's before, and that's who hired me. So training will be a breeze. I'm blessed! Please come and go often I will be adding some fun features to show how the baby is doing...you won't wanna miss. I'll also keep updating you on the other three kids as well. Thanks for your support and no negative posts please:) Thanks